Posts Tagged ‘Insomnea’

Falling for the Cheater

Friday, June 8th, 2012

Fictional Monologue. 

Cheaters are people most people hate. But for some reason I keep going back to him… he cheats on me again and again and I never learn. I keep telling myself that I love him. But then when he cheats… he tells me that it meant nothing to him, that I’m the only one he’ll ever love. When he looks at me with those blue eyes, how could I deny it? So I fall for him again and again. But I’m done. I can’t handle that type of pain… I just can’t. It feels like something is digging deeper and deeper into my chest… Sooner or later I will break down… I guess I’m doing that right now.

But he hurts me. And he loves me. I love him. I love him… but I am seriously falling apart. I have depression. I have eating disorders. I have insomnia. I’ve been diagnosed for all of those… but how do I keep going with him? He’s only making it worse. I hate it! I have to leave… and never come back. I have to get better… maybe if I move… maybe if I leave this place then I’ll get better. My whole family is scared of me. I hate this. I told my parents what happened. So now we’re moving. I hope it gets better. I need it to. I really do.

Monologue by: Grace Rosien